Beautifully Broken

Have you ever misunderstood what God was trying to tell you? I tend to find myself in this cycle that surely has God shaking His head at me.  I plan something, and I think it's the best plan that has to work out, then something happens, my plan crumbles, and I start angrily asking God "Why?!?". In these times, this is what I hear: Loud and clear, I think He is telling me "NO".  It seems confusing because it seems like there were so many yeses leading up to this no, that I become angry, confused, and sad while trying to figure out His response. The world we live it is all about NOW.  Everything we want is at the touch of a button.  We watch Netflix so we don't have to wait for commercials, we use Uber Eats so we don't have to waste time standing in line somewhere, we can buy literally anything from our phones.  These things aren't bad, but they do cause us to constantly live in a world where we are thinking about such a small...

I don't always understand storms.  I don't understand why hurricanes and tornados have to completely demolish people's homes.  I don't understand why people and situations completely change so you feel like you're picking up the pieces after an earthquake.  I don't understand why there have to be things like depression and anxiety where you feel like you're drowning in your own mind. Luckily, God understands.  Whether literal storms or the storms of everyday life, God does not create them just to cause destruction in our lives.  Sometimes God simply calls the waters to be calm.  Other times, He gives us more strength than we could ever have on our own to walk through these storms while He is holding us in His hands. Considering God understands far better than I do, Here are his words instead of my own.   Some of these verses are about times of distress, and some are God quite literally offering protection in times of storms. He caused the storm t...

A few minutes ago, I was having a lil chat with God about planning.  If I have updated you on my life lately, it's almost laughable how many of my plans have been turned upside down.  While half of me thinks I've inherited my dad's old nickname of "Schlep Rock" (Aka " One who is said to be unlucky or extremely unfortunate"), I also am realizing what  God is teaching me. Right after I asked God to continue to give me clarity and direction in certain areas of my life, I opened up my Bible to Luke 22.  Sometimes it's crazy how directly He speaks to us through His word.  Starting in verse 7, Jesus is commanding His disciples to go to town and prepare for the Passover.  The disciples ask, "Where do you want us to prepare?" and Jesus simply told them to just go and ask. I thought I would be staying home all summer with a nice local practicum near my friends and family.  Instead, God decided I would be going to a different city where I don...

If I think about everything I learned in college, I could give you a description of Child Development, a summary of a few English Lit. novels, possibly remember some Spanish, and I could even tell you about that bowling class I took.  While I am extremely thankful for this education, I am beginning to see the importance and need to focus on what God has been teaching me. I think one of the biggest lessons I began learning throughout college, and am still learning every single day, is to be content where I am with Christ. I can be a bit of a worrier, and I can also be a bit of a daydreamer.  This becomes an even bigger problem when I begin to worry about situations that aren't even real life.  I think this stems from my love of planning.  I am the kind of person that will write things in my planner even after they happen just to be able to visually see everything I have accomplished. I feel like so many of us live in the cycle of "if I can just make it through t...

memesuper.com Have you ever prayed over and over for something for so long, it seemed like it would never happen?  Your greatest desire to come true, your greatest stress to be taken from you, just something so big that it impacted each and every day?  Maybe you were waiting for a job offer or trying to ace a really hard class, but whatever it was, the stress was actually taking over your life.  If you've experienced long periods of prayer for something like this, I'm sure you remember the moment the stress was taken from you and whatever it was, finally worked out for the good.  Unfortunately, a lot of times the timeline looks a bit like this: Me: "Please God, I really need your help" Me: "God, I can't do this without you" Me: "God, please give me the strength for this" Me: *quotes Philippians 4:13 continuously* God: *reveals His absolutely perfectly timed plan for the millionth time* Me: "WHOOO yeah I did it!!! I'm s...